Sunday, October 10, 2010

Day 16

October 10, 2010 aka 10/10/10

Rainy day here today. What I do love about the wetness are all the smells that come with it. The wet earth, the growing plants, wet pavement. Every little scent seems magnified. 

Back in Boulder today is our neighbourhood block party. We're sad to be missing it and all our friends. 

But our couch was delivered today, in four boxes, and after some simple assemblage we had a new couch in our living room! That's really handy when more than one person wants to sit in that room.

We also did lots of unpacking/repacking today. Two steps forward, three steps back. More stuff out of boxes, some stuff back in, less organization throughout the house but stuff is being accomplished... I think. We're trying to go through everything. Take everything out of boxes, get rid of it or keep it, then leave it out or store it for the year. A good but tedious process. 

I was chewing some gum at one point, and Jacob was curious about it. I told him he couldn't have any but he could taste mine. So, he licks my gum, makes a mostly disgusted face but says, "mmm" as if he likes it. He does this several more times, thinking it's pretty funny. A little while later, Fraser asks him what he's chewing on. "You've been chewing on something for awhile now," Fraser says. "What is it?" "Gum," Jacob says. I almost peed myself. He was chewing on the inside of his cheek. Hilarious. Brilliant. I just love it.

Went to a nice little place for dinner: Rock Creek Tavern. I'm pretty sure that's the name. I saw it on the way to the pumpkin patch the other day, and it looked cozy. Old wooden building with lots of vegetation surrounding it and some patio tables. Inside was just as cozy. Many different lanterns in shades of red and orange lit the inside. A fire place off to one side and an upstairs where you could also peer down below. A large mushroom light; really, it's like a mushroom statute and under the head are lights so it shines softly from underneath. Some live Irish music was a nice addition to the evening.  Apparently it's part of this group of microbreweries, the McMenamins, that have a bunch of breweries around the Northwest and feature local music and such. Cool. Kind of reminded us of the Mt. Sun in Boulder. Jacob had the hot dog parts of some corn dogs (wouldn't touch the outside part) and then ate half my portabella and red bell pepper sandwhich. We wish they offered things like that on the kids' menu!

Day 15: An IKEA adventure

October 9, 2010

What do people do in Portland on a rainy Saturday afternoon? Go to IKEA! We decided to embrace this phenomenon and check it out for ourselves. Neither of us had actually ever been to an IKEA. We also happened to need a new couch. So, we started off after Jacob's nap.

First, it's a decent drive from our neck of the woods to IKEA, especially in the rain and when we had to turn around once to close our garage door (something we're definitely not used to). Probably about 35-40 minutes. 

Second, the place is a massive, maze-like wharehouse. Not prepared for that. Fraser was ready to walk back out as soon as  we walked in. Meandering through room after room of stuff to buy, avoiding fat, slow people and their unruly children, and all the while trying to actually make a decision on which couch to purchase for a a few hundred dollars is not his idea of a good time. Personally, I could've taken a lot longer to walk around. I wanted to oggle everything.

After realizing we were going against the flow of traffic (due to the arrows on the floor), we turned around ("I don't like being herded," says Fraser). Finally we found the couches. Sat on several. Jacob ejoyed this part. Fraser didn't care what we ended up with at this point. We also had to figure out how to actually buy the thing we wanted. Fraser went back downstairs while I stayed by the couches with Jacob. He came back as I was talking to a salesperson, both of us discovering that you take a little sheet of paper (with a map of the store on the back; how convenient) and write down the number of what you see. You then proceed to a pickup area to get your item. Unless it's a small item which you can put in one of their yellow bags. Or if it's a large item (like a couch) which you then purchase and pick up from a different area or have delivered to your house.


Whew! After way too long in the store, we finally had the one item we came for plus an easel for Jacob ("Should we get this now or closer to his birthday," I ask. "I never want to come back here so we're getting it now," says Fraser) and a  99 cent squeegee for the shower ("Might as well," says Fraser). Not bad, not bad. Our new couch is couch, chaise AND pull out bed. The bed pulls out kind of like a trundle to match up the longer chaise section with the couch. Good idea. Comfy too. We were sold. Literally. Hmm.


Had an interesting Fall Curry dinner last night from Cooking Light. Not bad but definitely not like a curry, either. Not saucy enough or something. Not flavourful enough. Curry powder just doesn't do the trick. But it was fast and filling enough which is what we were looking for. Jacob and I had also made a Bananas Foster Banana Bread this morning which was good throughout the day. I don't think mine was as fluffy as it's supposed to be. I forgot to add baking soda until the end when it was already in the pan so that could've had something to do with it. First elevation, then missed ingredients. I don't know that I'll ever get my breads to rise properly. It does taste good, though, thankfully. 

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Day 14: Lan Su Chinese Gardens

October 8, 2010

This afternoon, Jacob and I ventured downtown to the Lan Su Chinese Gardens. This week has been a cultural celebration of Oregon around the state and different activities have been held. The gardens were free to the public, so we checked them out. 

They are a model of what a traditional Chinese house in the city would be like. Lots of gardens, a pond and different rooms for scholarly things like poetry, calligraphy and such. 
It was really pretty and interesting. Jacob liked the little fish in the pond the best. 

My favourite part was exploring downtown a bit. I had been feeling a bit intimidated about driving in the city, but actually, it was fine. There's just so much to see: little shops and cafes, restaurants, and beautiful houses. Just over the hills it's a totally different world. Suburbia on one side, town on the other. Here are houses like I remember from visiting my aunt and uncle here as a child; more style, old glass windows, front porches, mature trees. I'm not very good at describing architecture, but these houses have character, history in them. I need to live somewhere that feels like this. 

I don't want Fraser's commute to be super long. If we move closer to the city, we need to be nearer to a Max line so he could take public transportation to work. For me to be able to walk around most places instead of driving would be great. 

 It's such a hard balance. Sacrificing Fraser's time for my convenience doesn't seem fair but living where we do now and not enjoying our home area doesn't seem to be the right answer either. Even though this felt like the right move and I don't doubt that it is, it's hard to let go of the "how" of how we'll end up where we should be. The universe points us where we need to go if we listen to ourselves and what feels right, though, so... I just need to remember that when I'm feeling overwhelmed by trying to figure it out. We'll see how that goes.



Thursday, October 7, 2010

Day 13

October 7, 2010

Home day. Decided to take it easy and just hang around the house most of today. Jacob took a great 2 1/2 hour nap allowing me to take an hour and a half one myself and then be somewhat productive. Whohoo!

Boxes, man. I tell you. Sometimes I have these spurts of organizing energy where I can just tear through those things. Other times, not so much. Today was in the middle. I did try to organize our bedroom a bit. We have a walk-closet that we couldn't walk into. So, I rearranged that a bit. Wiped down the shelves. 

And in the afternoon, we hit up the grocery store (finally). Getting to know a new grocery store can be a bit... tedious. It just takes longer and when I have a toddler who just wants to get out of the cart (even one of the cool ones he can "drive" himself) it's not very fun. But we managed. In the checkout line, he and I were talking. I was looking absentmindedly at the magazines. 
"Daddy?" Jacob says. He talks about Fraser a lot throughout the day and where he is. "Home?"
"Yea," I say, "Daddy's at home."
"Daddy, work?"
I stop looking at random magazine headlines. I look at Jacob.
"Right," I say, smiling. "You're right. Daddy's work, not home. Mommy wasn't paying attention."
He totally caught me and called me out. Pretty funny.

After the store, Jacob wanted to ride his bike out front. He has this little Radio Flyer bike that actually has four wheels. It's kind of a funny design but he seems to like it. It's gotten more play since we've been here than in Boulder. He likes to ride it in the street - with me, of course. We ended up meeting some more neighbours. Anna and her son, Cole. Cole was riding a bike. He's only four but was riding a two-wheeler. Jacob was very excited. He followed Cole around for awhile. We met Cole's dad, Carl. Nice guy. Into baseball. We played down there for awhile before returning home. It was great. Nice to know more people and to know that there are family people in the neighbourhood.


We made a delicious dinner. Mushroom and sausage ragu with creamy polenta. I had a little spinach salad too. It was really good. Jacob liked the mushrooms and sausage but not the polenta which I thought unreal. It was polenta and cream cheese, what's not to like? He's into helping, though, so he likes to dump things in the bowls and do the mixing. 


After dinner, he and Fraser read, Oh, the Wonderful Sounds Mr. Brown Can Do and Jacob made all the sounds, something I have never heard him do. Very cute.


And Fraser and I got a bit of time together after the boy went to bed. He told me a bit more about his job. He's in the training part and finally getting to some interesting aspects. Sounds like a really good company. Lots of secret stuff, lots more work on his shoulders. But I think more for his brain to do which is always good for him. So we'll find out how it all works and see what ends up working for us. It's the start of an interesting journey. 


Meanwhile, I wonder if my little Shilo kitty is depressed. She was eager to get outside at first and has been out several times. But she also seems a little.... less adventurous that normal. She'll go out for a little while and then come back. Then she just sleeps the rest of the day. Today she didn't even want to go out till late afternoon. I know she's a cat and that cats do sleep a lot. But I wonder if she misses her old territory (in a way that a cat might miss something). I'm probably just putting my human feelings on her. But she has been more into me petting her as well. And she sleeps with us in bed. Who knows. I know she loved it at our old house.


I had some moments of loneliness today. Just fleeting on my way to the grocery store. Who can I just call to hang out with, go to the gym with, break up the all day one-on-one time with? Horrible sentence that was ending with a preposition. We're meeting new people and it's been a pretty good week overall, but I miss my friends. I miss my neighbourhood. It takes longer than 13 days to have a place feel like home and although I don't want to wish my time away, I wish we were already farther into this transition at times. New places have fun aspects and... lonely aspects.

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Day 12: Pumpkins

October 6, 2010

This morning Jacob and I switched things up and headed to the gym for a yoga class. Well, he went to the kids area. He was excited to go in, barely looked back. Going to a new gym reminded me of joining Flatiron Athletic Club in Boulder years ago. Gab encouraged me to join which was a great idea. Today felt a bit lonely without knowing that she would be here too, that her being here wasn't an option. But the yoga class was nice. Simple but good for stretching out my body. Of course, Jacob cried slightly when he first saw me return but the ladies at the childcare area said he was great the whole time. I'm glad he's used to this type of thing. I need to do it more frequently for his sake and for mine.

It was absolutely gorgeous today. I know I have to take advantage of the sunny days here and soak up the vitamin D when we can. I should've gone grocery shopping. Instead, I decided to go to a pumpkin patch. No need to wait until closer to Halloween; we can go more than once!

Plumper Pumpkins. Cute. Nice short drive out into the country. We are seriously just a few blocks from the agriculturally zoned area. We are the cookie cutter suburbia houses that took away all the farmland that used to be here that I always hated when taking drives as a younger person. And here we are, benefiting from something I used to critique so harshly. Not that I'm convinced of it's selling points yet but still... ironic, maybe.

How different this experience was from last year. First of all, we're in Portland. Second, it was hot this time. But really, Jacob is so much bigger than last year!! He was just learning to walk last year. He started at the beginning of October last year. Absolutely incredible the changes that happen so quickly at these young ages. I think the second year has been more shocking than the first. The first was survival. This one is noticing and seeing when his brain goes to a new level. 

We walked through the patch. There were some really cute little pumpkins. He didn't want to take any home. I asked him several times. I wanted to. And I could've but we'll be back, so I decided to save our money.

They had a little corn maze. It was okay. The best corn maze I've ever been to was in Michigan and the paths were wide and the maze was huge. I think they'd plowed an old Model T into the field. It was incredible. So, most other mazes pale in comparison. But Jacob loved it. He was fascinated by the corn in the husks. 

 He was also excited to see "Ay males" up close and personal. Lots of climbing on these. 

He wanted to ride the actual tractor but I told him it was only for the people who worked there. I think he was over the picture taking at this point; 'Alright, Ma, just take it already and then we can actually do something'.

 I don't know what it is about pumpkins with me, but every year I take a picture kind of like this one. Usually it's just straight on, and I did take one of those too. They're just so aesthetically pleasing. Round. Orange. Good texture. I don't know. I just want to touch them all. Rub their little round sides like a Buddha belly. So I have tactile tendencies...

 
 He just had to have an apple. That's my boy. He devoured it. To the core.
Found some huge empty tires to play in.



And I got one more "Cheese!" out of him for the camera. Otherwise, when I'd ask to take his picture he'd say, "No" or, what sounds like, "Never". That last one is a new one in that last couple of days. I don't know that that is what he's saying but it sure sounds like it and he uses it correctly in context. Who knows.





 He really wanted to eat the pumpkin. Like an apple. Again, who really knows what goes on in their little brains. All I know is that it's a lot.

Day 11: A new friend

October 5, 2010

Jacob and I took our morning run today. My legs are sore from only two mornings of doing minimal exercise.... hmm.... 
We stopped at the park again where there was another mom and her boy. We got to talking and it turns out she lives two doors down. The best part, she seems really cool so far. She and her husband lived in Broomfield when they first got married and she didn't wan to leave there. But for work reasons they live where they do now. Karen. Andy is her husband and they have three kids, the youngest one is just a year older than Jacob. They were having a good time together while we went over the benefits and drawbacks of suburbia as well as other aspects of our lives. She also is a member of the gym here. Great! We stopped by her house on the way home and got a feel for how one of these poorly designed houses can feel more homey. She pointed out all her Ikea furniture and sung its praises. Fraser, Jacob and I will definitely be making a trip at some point. 

 Oh, blackberries! This afternoon, after a couple of errands, we took a little nature walk behind our house and picked some blackberries. I hadn't yet told Jacob that they were back there for fear he'd want to be back there the minute he woke up. He was very excited. We'd find a few then look for more. When we'd find more, he'd say, "Ohhh" really loud and point. So great. 

We also saw a couple garter snakes which startled me a bit. I tried not to let Jacob smell my fear. I don't want to give him my phobias. Garter snakes are fine and if he ever wants to pick one up, great. If he ever wants me to pick one up, I'll have to come up with a good reason not to. Or be a grownup about it and just do it. Hopefully he doesn't ask me for a long time.

Monday, October 4, 2010

Day 10

October 4, 2010

Fraser's first day of work. He was a little nervous but also excited. I'm excited for him. I hope this job is fun for him. I was feeling a bit concerned yesterday about being on my own with Jacob all day. I didn't sleep great last night. And when Fraser said he'd probably be home around six I thought, wow, that's a long time with just me and Jacob. I've learned that you can't let those helpless feelings in, though. You have to acknowledge them and then say, but I know better. It'll be fine.


We went for a short jog on the bike path this morning. We went in one direction that dead-ended pretty quickly then backtracked to the park. 15 minutes. That was a good start after not being very active for a long while. Then we played at the park for awhile (saw a Western Scrub Jay - really pretty blue bird) before coming home for a little snack and naptime.

He took an amazing nap today - almost three hours!! If that were routine, my life would be so different. I'd actually be able to accomplish things. Ha! 
Went out for some errands after lunch: Target, Ross. More money on things; soaps, cleaners, things we couldn't bring with us in the move. Jacob was great. He helped me smell the different hand soaps and cleaners to determine which ones we should get. By the time we got home it was dinner time and Fraser was almost home.


Jacob powered through his dinner - half a bagel, an egg, one and a half hash brown patties and a piece of quesadilla. Amazing that he was that hungry and not complaining at all beforehand. The kid can be a total handful sometimes, but really, he's such an easygoing kid. And very smart. I wish had a recorder for all the little things he says during the day because by nighttime, I can't remember half of them. After dinner, he was playing with the Fisher Price house I had found in the garage. He brought me the table and I told him what it was. He goes back to the house and puts the lady in one of the little chairs and pushes the chair up to the table. Very carefully. Later he laid the woman down in bed. He'll also just drive his cars around on the garage toy or up the arms of the chair. It's so awesome to see his little brain thinking and making things up. That's something I am so thankful to be able to watch every day.


I think we're both having a bit of Gymboree withdrawal. He asked about it a couple times during our road trip and today after Fraser asked if he'd had a good time hanging out with me all day, he mentioned it again. "Gymboree," he said. "Mommy." I know he misses it. And I miss singing all the time! Of course, I sing to Jacob but I miss doing it with and for others. I'll have to look into some of the ones farther out from Beaverton.


This is the outfit Jacob picked for himself today. The shirt used to be Fraser's: "If you love me, don't feed me junk"









And we got some new slippers which he actually really seems to like. At least for today.